Happy Ever After

If happy ever after did exist,
I'd still be curled up every morning in your bed,
Butt against crotch,
Wrapped in the warmth of your being.
I'd still be woken up by your soft touch,
Feeling your tender hands on my skin,
Your lips on mine,
Your hands on my breast,
Your body on me.

If happy ever after did exist,
I'd still listen to you as you speak,
Get you word by word like a baby,
Marvel at the movement of your lips,
Drown in the sweet sound of your voice,
Smile at the twitch of your nose,
Let my heart throb as you poke to life the embers of my soul.
I'd still melt away when you take me up,
To the heights you and I only know of,
I'd still anticipate for the arousal, then the release,
I'd still fall back into bed with you with a sigh,

But forever is illusion,
My bank is now full of memories,
Sweet turned sour,
White turned black,
And red lost meaning.
I dread your comebacks in the evenings,
I no longer know what you come bearing,
For scowls are what are left of you,
You no longer touch me,
The oasis of love dried up,
My skin is like parched earth,
I pretend to understand your ways,
I pretend to enjoy the pain,
Because happy ever after doesnt exist.