Dead Or Not

Staring at him in the coffin,
I feel myself shudder,
In there lay a man I once loved,
A man I've been married to,
For the last seven years,
More like the worst years of my life,
The wrong decision I made in life.


I feel no remorse or hurt,
Am thankful he's out of my life,
And as I remove my ring,
My heart sings the melodies of freedom,
Restoring free will I lost the day I walked down the aisle.


Smiling in satisfaction,
I still know deep down,
His ghosts will always haunt me,
Putting a hand on my belly,
Like I could build a cocoon,
To keep them safe always,
I was happy knowing I had double blessings.


My back still hurts,
From all his blows,
I wanted to leave but he wouldn't let me,
Now six feet down he can't hurt me,
And as his casket was lowered,
I threw my ring in.


They all watched with scornful eyes,
But they wouldn't understand anyway,
He was such an angel,
But behind closed doors,
Only I knew the devil.